- The worst enemy to my creativity is…
I have a hard time expressing my creativity when I’m distracted by my own insecurities. How do I get distracted by my deeply embedded insecurities?
Don’t judge me cause I know you do it too. It’s not that I’m not confident in the gifts God has given me. I know what I’m good at and what needs fine-tuning. I am great at being grammatically correct. I do well at metaphorical writing.
The issue? I suck at writing about topics that I’m not interested in. The topics like, “How to Find the Perfect Hairstyle for Your Personality Type” or “10 Ways You Can Get His Attention Tonight.”
I CAN’T DO IT! <insert a stressed out emoji face here>
And this is the stink of it: A lot of times you have to write stuff you have no interest in just to be published.
I feel like that’s selling out and I’m having a hard time with it. I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t allow my authentic brand of creative expression to naturally flow. Right? Am I wrong here?
Cause when I submit an article to a magazine and get rejected after investing multiple hours of focus and heart into it, well, I get insecure. What are they looking for? So I read the other articles in the magazine to see if my personal work is really publish-worthy. And the thing is, I read stuff and think, “I can so do that!”
But the question is, “Do I really want to? Do I want to tailor my style to fit someone else’s mold just so I can say that I’ve been published?”
No. I just don’t think I can do it.
Ah, such is the balancing act between authenticity and popularity. So, for now, let’s just say I’m good with sticking to my guns and not altering my artistic voice for anyone else. Not yet, anyways.
Those darn cliché article titles, though. Like a moth to a flame, they pull me in every time.